You've got a friend in me, or maybe you don't!

One of the hardest things to do is admit our flaws. I know, it's hard for me at least. But I'm hoping if I admit it, I'll be able to fix it.

Okay.. here it goes. I am a bad friend.  I never call.  I never text.  I'm just the worst!  I know this about myself, but it doesn't mean I like it.  Actually, I hate it.  I don't know why I don't keep in touch, but I do know, I am so lucky to have a lot friends, real, true friends- from childhood, from college, from numerous jobs.  I have friends all over the country- from sea to shining sea!  But I still never call!

I'm not sure if social media has made this better or worse.  Because of Facebook, Twitter and Instagram, I feel like I'm in touch with my friends, know what's happening in their lives and see their families, even though I don't actually SEE or TALK to them.  It's great that we stay in touch that way, but I'm even less likely to pick up the phone, if I see you on social media all the time!  

My friend, LeAnne, visits from California every
couple of years, we rarely talk between her trips

Even though I never call, whenever I get together with my friends, it seems like time has stood still. We pick up right where we left off.  One friend lives in California, I see her every time she comes back east for a visit.  I will drive hours to see her!  I love talking to her, getting her advice, her views of the world.  She and I still have so much in common, and I value her opinions.  But we very rarely talk between her visits.

My friend, Angela (left), lives about 20 minutes from me,
we only get together a few times a year

I have another friend who lives about 20 minutes away from me.  I have her over to my house a few times a year for dinner.  When she leaves, we hug, say we need to talk more, then I don't call her again until I want to invite her over for dinner again.  (Speaking of which, I need to call her and have her over for dinner!)

I haven't gotten together with all my college friends
in more than 10 years

Last week, one of my closest friends experienced a tragedy, her mother passed away after years of suffering.  I was there for her, calling and texting. I made sure I was there for the wake and the funeral.  I cried when she gave the eulogy. But before last week, it had been a while since we had talked.  A couple of our other friends from college were also at the wake an funeral.  It was so nice to be back with my girls, even if it was for something so horrible.  It just felt so natural to be with them again, laughing, teasing, feeling each other's pain.  It didn't seem like it had been years since we had all been together.

I can make all kinds of excuses for being a bad friend.  I'm busy.  I work a lot.  I have a child with special needs.  While all of these things are true, none of these is the reason, I've just always been bad about staying in touch.  I don't know why.  So, to all my friends out there, I love you all, I miss you a lot, and if you haven't heard from me in a while- I truly am sorry, please don't take it personally, and you can always hit me up on Facebook!

Phew, at least I admitted it.